come upstairs and i’ll show you where all my
where my demons hide from you
just look at who i have become
i’m so ashamed you were the one
that made me feel the way i do
you broke me
and taught me
to truly hate myself
unfold me
and teach me
how to be like somebody else
when i felt strong enough
i was discovered by the love
i had been waiting for so long
you told me none of that was real
i cannot hide how low i feel
to know that you were never wrong


much has changed. life does that to you,  it flexes you like a soft plate and you find your ass landing from one side to the next.

awhile back i went so far down as to committing near-resignation. so much had been stripped off of me that i questioned if i’ll ever be somebody again. well i got out of that. still crawling my way out, actually. at least now i’m able to take a step back from the things that terrify me and stomach the possibility of losing things and… people.